Tabby, I love you so much. Monday, March 12th had to be the worst day of my life.

I was so worried about you because you weren't eating again. So I called your vet and they told me to bring you right in! I was so grateful to them. I thought they would give you some fluids in your back like last time and you'd be okay. They told me they could do that, or they could run all of your bloodwork again to see how dehydrated you were. I chose the bloodwork. So you spent the morning at the vet. Then I got a call from your vet - normally one of the nurses called me to give me an update, but this time it was the vet herself. She told me your kidneys were failing. Your BUN was 130 and your creatinine was 10.2. Sweetie, you know mommy is a nurse for humans and I understood what these numbers meant.

Grandma and I went over to the vet to discuss what to do. I could have taken you to the emergency vet to have you admitted for a few days. They could have given you fluids in your veins. But honey, you were so sick for so long. I didn't know your kidneys were failing on top of all of your other illnesses. I'm upset that I didn't recognize the symptoms earlier. Please forgive me.

Making the decision to let you go was the hardest decision I ever made. They asked me if I wanted them to bring you to me while I thought about it and at first I said NO!!! How could I say no? Please understand that mommy was hurting really bad and I wasn't thinking straight. But then I did tell them to bring you in and I held you. For a good hour. I felt how skinny you were. You were skin and bones and fur. That's all. No muscle. One thing that stays in my mind is how the vet said that even if we go ahead with treatment, you wouldn't "have much of a kitty life".

Also, please forgive me that I wasn't with you when you took your last breaths. It's not that I don't love you - it's that I DO love you and I don't think I could have handled seeing you go to sleep one last time.

I'm not sure why you had kidney failure. I think it may have been the food. I'm so sorry I gave you that food.

Thank you for sending Tessie to me! Don't think that I didn't notice that she came to the shelter on the same day you left me! She's an absolute doll and Tucker just loves her.

Tabby, you will always have a special place in my heart, and I will never forget you.

Love,
Your Mommy Lisa

And now, some pictures:

That was beautiful :rainbow: And sad also :bawling: And she was such a beautiful, gorgeous little girl. Her personality cleary shines through in those photos.
Lisa, you gave her such a wonderful life. She had everything a kitty could ever want. God must have had a plan for her and needed her sooner rather than later.

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Farewell sweet little Tabby Girl :bawling: :lilangel: :bawling:

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:crying: That's beautiful, Lisa. :comfort:

Sweet little Tabby :lilangel:

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:bawling: RIP Sweet Tabby
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That was lovely Lisa... so very moving. :hug: :hug: Tabby was a very lucky cat to have you in her life....as you were very lucky to have her. She is, and will forever be, a very loving, beautiful little girl.. :luv2: :luv2: RIP sweet angle girl... :lilangel:

Lisa, that was beautiful.

I can promise you that Tabby knew you did everything you could for her. She knows you did everything out of love. There is nothing you've done that she needs to forgive you for. I just know that.

I'm so proud of you for being able to love another needy kitty so soon. That was very brave and strong of you. I imagine Tabby is pretty proud of you, too.

:comfort: Lisa, you were and are such a great cat mommy and you did everything you could for your Tabby. I know it is hard for you and I cant imagine losing one of my girls but I admire you for your strength and now you are a mommy to sweet Tessie and she is very lucky to have you.

Take care hun.. I know its hard, but keep strong :hug:

HUGS! Lisa I was so sorry to hear about the beautiful girl! RIP sweet Tabby!

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What a wonderful tribute! She was certainly a special girl.... :luv2:

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Heaven is very lucky to have such a beautiful :lilangel: in its midst. Lisa, you did everything you could for Tabby. And she knew that. That's why she sent Tessie to you and Tucker. It was her way of thanking you for being such a wonderful mommy to her. She knew that you needed a little girl to love and Tessie was that girl. Tabby knew that the love you had for her would help you love Tessie.

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RIP TABBY
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:luv2: What a beautiful baby.

:hug: Lisa.

Thank you ALL! :grouphug: I truly appreciate you all being here for me and Tucker when we needed you the most.

That was beautiful Lisa. All the pictures of sweet Tabby were so beautiful, she was such a happy girl. She remains in your heart with you forever. :hug:

Rest in Peace sweet Tabby. Lisa you did everything you could, you have absolutely nothing to be sorry for. :hug:
I'm so glad Tessie found you, she is a lucky kitty.
:hug: I'm so sorry Lisa